It’s been too long since I’ve posted, but the holidays sorta kicked my butt and then I got sick, so I just haven’t had the time or energy. To be honest, I really haven’t had much to say since this wait has turned from bearable to seemingly interminable – and just a little painful.
We have reached yet another milestone that I never thought we’d see – one year since LID. As Jonathan said this morning, we thought we’d be in the midst of parenthood by now, with all the craziness and fun and joy that it holds, but here we are, still holding on.
I was recently rather upset by the series of events, starting with the announcement of changes to the rules regarding China adoptions, and leading to the offensive and insensitive remarks made by panelists on the CNN program, Paula Zahn Now. This subject has been discussed at length on countless message boards and blogs, but suffice it to say - I was offended, and it takes a lot to do that. I don’t consider myself overly sensitive and try to not take comments personally, but this was just too much, even for me. If you don’t know what I’m talking about and would like to read transcripts from the shows, they can be found here and here. The fact that the rules have changed really stinks for those just starting what used to be a fair and predictable process, and although we are not affected, our hearts go out to those who are.
So, a year gone by and an indeterminate amount of time left to wait. We think eight more months are ahead of us, but still hope and pray for a speed-up, no matter how small. My heart aches for so many babies waiting for their families to come and bring them home. My arms ache for our daughter, already so much a part of our hearts and lives.